I have met and been surrounded by phenomenal women, all who share the bond of breast cancer with me. I never expected to say that I felt isolated in Victoria, but it felt good to be with women who truly understood what I have gone through.
I have laughed and cried. It’s just all so overwhelming.
As I leave the conference behind me, I come away with a piece of knowledge I didn’t have before. I no longer need to wonder “now what” because it’s apparent to me that I’ve already decided what that is and have been doing it all along: I am going to live my life. I don’t need all the answers or pieces right now, those will come as life happens; what’s important is that I move forward.
I also know that it’s not a “new” normal I seek. I’ve changed, how could I not? But then again, I’ve changed every year that I get older, the only difference is how fast this one happened and why.
It’s not a fumbling for where my place is that has me slightly flumoxed; it’s getting back into a routine, one that isn’t scheduled around the doctor’s appointments or the Cancer Clinic.
It will take some time to process all that has happened here.
Pics now posted for those interested.