the blues

MRI results

So. As usual I’ve been waiting for results and the “what’s next,” before composing my next post. My latest MRI scan was May 13. There is minimal growth on frontal lobe tumour, slightly increased edema in the same area. I spoke with my nurse practitioner today. We’re continuing the existing course of action, adding Lasix to help reduce the edema in my legs and feet. My oncologist may change current treatment plan based on MRI…must wait at least one more oral chemo cycle.

Am I okay with that? Yes. Uncertainty has been part of my life for 2 years now, what’s one more thing??!!

retirement blues?

Work has been my purpose for so long, as it is for everyone. I’ve been actively employed since I was 14 yrs old.

When you love what you do, work doesn’t feel like work. I had no idea that I would develop such a passion for legislation. I’ve spent over 20 years working with it. Wow! As a person who flitted through different jobs for many years, public service turned out to be my niche and I’m proud of my work.

So when I’m asked if I will be bored in retirement, I have to admit that yes there will be days of boredom, those days exist now.

As a type A personality, structure/routine has been my friend and mainstay. Ironically one of the tactics of cancer treatments is routine: same bedtime, same rise time, same timing for meals, same timing for personal care…etc.Things I will be doing–

  • Napping as and when I want.
  • Marking up my bullet journal.
  • Reading – book series recommendations welcomed.
  • Being comfortable and safe.


I had a former co-worker and friend tell me how a seed I planted 6 years ago is about to come to fruition. At a cost of 4.6 million, the project is about to go to tender. I fought very hard for this project, doing significant business case research. The business analyst worked on it because of me and now it’s about to happen. You can’t always know the results of your efforts but DAMN, this one was worth hearing about.


Okay this question has come up: how is medication affecting my hearing? Eustachian tubes connect the middle ears to the back of your throat. They help drain fluid and equalize the air pressure inside your ears. Eustachian tube disorder can result from a cold, allergies and medications. Symptoms include–

  • Your ears may feel plugged or full.✅
  • Sounds may seem muffled.✅
  • You may feel a popping or clicking sensation.✅
  • You may have pain in one or both ears.✅
  • You may experience ringing in your ears (called tinnitus).✅
  • You may sometimes have trouble keeping your balance. [Well this is from something else].

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