I admit it. I’ve been waffling. My dear friends have been frank with me: I’ve never settled before, why now; I could get a different referral, etc.
It’s funny how the mind works. Now that I know that Dr. Taylor has no choice since MSP has approved the surgery, it’s been tempting to give him my choice of surgery over liposuction and go forward. The fact that I haven’t called him to give him my choice is telling.
My friends and even my brain is right, why would I trust such a person to do this for me? So I admit, I’ve waffled.
Why am I not seeking another opinion? I don’t have a good answer to why I’ve delayed. I do know that a HUGE concern for me is the cost that will happen should I seek a consultation in Vancouver (and lower mainland). And the cost of surgery on the mainland – not that the surgery itself will cost me, but the travel and subsequent return to Vancouver Island. This part of it SUCKS. Money is tight for Vince and me. It does have to factor in somewhat.
Yesterday I did a prescription refill check-in with my GP, except my GP is on maternity leave and I got her substitute. I talked about my upcoming physical (6-mo check up and annual report to the Cancer Centre). In the process of describing my dilemma, she was so amazing: Gayle, we’ll talk again about it in December, but know that Victoria is NOT your only option and we’ll work together on it. It almost made me cry.
There is another reason. It took 2 fraking years to get one appointment. How long till the next?
I’ll let you know what transpires in December.