vacation

I think I might have had an epiphany.

I am off work from December 20th to January 4th ~ returning to work just in time for my second-last herceptin treatment.

I don’t know that I’ve allowed myself to take or make time for myself these past 18 months ~ even when I was off after my surgery. Picture this, I was hunched over, could barely sit up let alone straight, and my arms required support and here I was sitting at my work computer (I have an office computer and link-up with the office network here at home), reading emails and RESPONDING.  How bloody warped is that??

While the enter conversation isn’t etched in my brain, I was talking with my boss yesterday before vamoosing and in the course of the conversation I asked him if he was aware that in the past 18 months I hadn’t taken any time for me? He said he wasn’t surprised. I looked at him and said, “You know, I needed the office more than it needed me in the past 18 months, but not anymore.”

And it’s true. Hence the “did I just have an epiphany?” thought.

I’m a LONG way from having any work-life balance, but I’m closer to taking care of me than I’ve been in a long time.

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namaste

1 thought on “vacation

  1. Epiphanies are good and so are crutches for when you need them. Having somewhere to go, something to do, something to keep your mind occupied is vital to healing.
    Work has been there for you, but now you get to work to live again…instead of living to (or for in part) work.
    Quite the epiphany and good for you!
    Merry Christmas to all of you…the whole flock!
    KTBS, ABS, LDB

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